“A multipotentialite is someone with many interests and creative pursuits. Multipotentialites have no “one true calling” the way specialists do. Being a multipotentialite is our destiny.” I stumbled across this today and honestly couldn’t be more grateful. Somehow putting a name to it have given […]
To really understand start by reading this: News Article
I dreamt about craig last night, for probably the 3rd time since he died. It makes my heart ache to see him again, holding onto the image of him in my dream for a long as I can. After the pain of his death subsided enou gh for me to move back home and into my old room, I spent most nights wishing I could see his ghost. Just to see his face one last time, to see that cheeky smile I loved so much. Feel his energy. Laugh at his crazy personality.
The fact that I’ll never see his face again has never quite sunk in, I don’t think I’ve every really mourned for him probably. I don’t even remember the day I blocked out that emotion, the day I decided not to feel anymore. At the time it was the only way I could breath. Eveny memory still brings me pain; Listening to Eminem brings back every day we spent together, sharing headphones on the bus on our way to college. Every Carlsberg beer reminds me how easily he got drunk because of his epilepsy medication and every hanging on TV brings back made up images of him hanging there. It’s been over 6 years but every memory still feels so raw to me that on days like to today I still find it hard to breath. To face the world without my best friend and remember that he really is gone
I just want to hug him, just one last time and know that he doesn’t blame me. Nothing prepares you for the pain of loosing someone in that way, to be blamed for their death. No amount of people telling you, it’s not your fault makes you feel better. On days like this it’s impossible not feel the weight on your shoulders. Even if my new found self awareness tells me that’s life is just challenging me again, it doesn’t help the pain of loosing him. The pain of being called a murderer.
So today I’ll let myself mourn. Just for a little while at least.
Note. This is the first time I’ve ever seen a picture of his gravestone. I wasn’t allowed to go to the funeral.
Im going to be really real with you here. It’s hard to control emotions, already being controlled by your body. Man, periods suck. I’ve been an absolute nightmare the past couple of days, despite ever effort to change my mood, I jump right back around […]
Life has a funny way of putting people in your path. I was really excited about the work event I’d booked to go to, I’d been watching the guest speaker on Facebook for months and couldn’t believe I was going to get to meet her. Until that was, I saw a post on Facebook explain how we’d be having someone different due a last minute drop out. To say I was disappointed was an understatement, the original speaker explained she had to drop out due to need to be on a heart monitor and wouldn’t be able to anything as strenuous as a high energy talk. I had no idea who this guy was that they had replaced her with, he had enough claims to his name I figured he was legit but I hadn’t connected with him like I had the previous speaker. I went to the event with a lot of judgement.
Oh how wrong was I to judge…From the get go this guy’s energy was INCREDIBLE. Warren INSPIRE Ryan. I mean he had the word inspire in his name for fuck sake! And he.stole.the.show. Introducing me to a world I never thought possible. Now only a few months down the line and I’m on to course number two with Warren INSPIRE Ryan. I’ve had the pleasure of meeting him twice now and can honestly say that, having the previous speaker drop out, was the best thing that ever happened. I spent last month with him building my confidence (to sadly have it knocked back by my poor health) and this month, with renewed determination, I’m learning to LOVE myself. And I’m bringing you guys on my journey!
How Does It Work?
Well the rules are simple:
- No Negative Nacy’s
- No Comparing Yourself To Others
- No Gossiping
- No Giving Up
We split into teams which by the end of the course we’ll come consider to be family and we follow the routine.
Mondays – Training with Warren at 8pm
Tuesday – Challenge Day
Wednesday – Training
Thursday – Challenge Day
Friday – Treat yourself for all your hard work.
Everyday is broken down into Morning and Evening Tasks, we’re ask to spend AT LEAST 30 minutes in ourselves EVERYDAY.
- Mirror Work
- Facebook Live
- Gratitude List
- Watch the Morning Video from Warren
- Spend 30mins on yourself (I’ll likely spend this reading while the baby naps)
- Mirror Work – Affirmations
- Gratitude Journal
Alongside which we should also aim to make at least one persons day and do as many RAK’s (Random acts of Kindness) as possible.
So yeah. For the next 21 days I will be blogging EVERYDAY about my experience on this 21 Day Self Love Course, and I welcome you guys to join me. Follow my story, leave your comments and learn with me as I learn to truly love myself all over again. Come and follow me on Facebook as I share my story, take on twice weakly challenges and try to teach others the incredible things I’ve been learning along my journey to becoming a better person.
Now I have to somehow get to sleep. Like seriously, how does warren sleep with all this energy??
I became a whole new person yesterday, and I never want to forget how or why I needed that change as much as I did. I never want to forget the forget the pain I went through to get mew to where I am today. […]
I realise this title seems completely backward. Until lately, I’ve spent nearly every day of my life since being diagnosed cursing my chronic condition. Cursing the pain my IIH (Idiopathic Intracranial Hypertension) gave me. Wondering why me? and wishing it selfishly could have happened to […]
Welcome to my first ever haul post, inspired by Emma Drew who just recently did a Poundland Haul Video, I just had to go and figured I’d share my goodies with you. I only got a few bits but I couldn’t help but share!
I started with a few beauty bits, thes Bammy M nail vernish’s were such a find. Not only do they make a nice treat but also fab birthday treats thrown into a nice little hamper. The recent hot wether we’ve been having has been drying my lips so I picked up this Soft Rose Nivea lip balm to care for my lips and give me a nice bit of colour. Finally I picked this Garnier Mineral Deodorant, for a £1 it’s the smaller size then you’ll usualy find in Boots or Superdrug but it will fit nicely in Logan’s changing bag for on the go freshness.
As reccomended I picked up a couple of Zoflora, they smell AMAZING! And you can use them for just about anything. Along the times of keeping things clean, I picked up this adorable apron. I absolutely love the “Dishy like Daddy” quote.
Finally I picked up a box of these yogurt breaks, they are delishious and a really handy on the go snack for any busy mummy. A pack of these and a piece of fruit will keep you going during a busy morning.
Let me know your thoughts on my first haul post! And wether I should do more.